euphoria will RISE!

2010-03-15T04:24:00.001+08:00

Sitting in the market all dressed for work at this hour 4am.. Insomnia again :(

2010-01-17T22:59:00.001+08:00

It's all coming back..

2009-12-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

seeing my love in 3 days time :)

Sinned

2009-11-27T20:45:00.001+08:00

I'm a sinned man..

2009-11-16T19:21:00.001+08:00

I miss my grandmother... :(

2009-11-01T19:33:00.001+08:00

ฉันรู้เธอรอฉัน รอฟังคำนั้นซักวัน

ฉันรู้ฉันมันรั้ง ดึงดันไม่ยอมพูดมา

ฉันแค่คิด ยังไม่ถึงเวลา

ฉันรู้ว่าวันนี้ มันก็อาจจะสายเกินไป

แม้พูดดังแค่ไหน กลายเป็นไม่มีผู้ฟัง

ฉันไม่รู้ เธออยู่ในที่แสนไกล

ได้ยินไหม ได้ยินไหม โปรดฟังว่าฉันรักเธอ

เธอจะอยู่ไหน อยู่สุดฟ้าไกล เพียงให้เธอรับรู้

ได้ยินฉัน บอกเธอไหม ว่าคนคนนี้รักเธอ

นี่ไงคำว่ารัก ที่เธอรอฟัง ได้ยินไหม

เพิ่งรู้ในตอนนี้ เวลาทุกวินาที

รู้ซึ้งในตอนนี้ บางคำที่แสนสำคัญ

พูดวันนี้ เหมือนเธอนั้น อยู่แสนไกล

ได้ยินไหม ได้ยินไหม โปรดฟังว่าฉันรักเธอ

เธอจะอยู่ไหน อยู่สุดฟ้าไกล เพียงให้เธอรับรู้

ได้ยินฉัน บอกเธอไหม ว่าคนคนนี้รักเธอ

นี่ไงคำว่ารัก ที่เธอรอฟัง ได้ยินไหม

พูดวันนี้ เหมือนเธอนั้น อยู่แสนไกล

ได้ยินไหม ได้ยินไหม โปรดฟังว่าฉันรักเธอ

เธอจะอยู่ไหน อยู่สุดฟ้าไกล เพียงให้เธอรับรู้

ได้ยินฉัน บอกเธอไหม ว่าคนคนนี้รักเธอ

นี่ไงคำว่ารัก ที่เธอรอฟัง

ได้ยินไหม ได้ยินไหม โปรดฟังคนนี้รักเธอ

นี่ไงคำว่ารัก ที่เธอรอฟัง ได้ยินไหม

2009-10-21T23:37:00.001+08:00

Finally learnt how to wash / hang / iron my clothes today :D

Yeah, I grow up Liao hahahahaha

恨比爱比较容易放下

2009-10-15T09:53:00.000+08:00

2009-10-08T21:46:00.001+08:00

tears rolled down my cheek while i clear/pack my room.
even before i offically move out, my mum has already brought interested tenants.

this feeling is indescribable.. i feel lonely, somehow or rather, lost.

Goodbye katong, goodbye my loved ones :(

goodbye to the memories that she left behind.

Nothing's ever built to last.

2009-09-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

Watch your thoughts;

they become words.

Watch your words;

they become actions.

Watch your actions;

they become habits.

Watch your habits;

they become character.

Watch your character;

it becomes your destiny.

2009-09-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

hmm.. should i join chris working offshore? :(

leaving your families, friends.. traveling months in the sea..

maybe i should just give it a try..?

2009-08-31T00:16:00.002+08:00

past 9 days, spent 7 days @ east coast =.=

6 days blading, 1 day bbq..

shag ~

started my volunteering orientation liao...

jack, jiayou! :)

2009-08-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

Love is a feeling. Love is total acceptance. Love is unconditional.
But if you want a COMMITTED Relationship to work, it is A DECISION.
A decision to stay faithful.
A decision to go through thick & thin.
A decision to be honest to each other always..

advises to couples out there =)

2009-08-08T09:38:00.002+08:00

thanks shaun and ckr for accompanying me yesterday. just learned she already got a new bf.

life definitely sucks for me right now hah!

take care my friends, i feel life is meaningless right now..

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know baby
You belong with me, you belong with me

2009-08-06T12:13:00.002+08:00

manage to contact eugene after many years of MIA. happily married and baby number 1 is coming soon these few days hahaha.

heard from jw that our ex colleague got stab to death in KL. apparently robbed and stabbed :( only 24 yrs old.. such a pity. haiz

life sucks yea.

2009-08-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

back in 2006, when we 1st broke up, i was filled with emo-ness and started listening to sad music.. one of which is by 李圣杰.. i remember singing her this song haha.. the lyrics is saying what exactly is happening to me..

有多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害
深爱的人一离开
是我不敢
忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

2009-08-01T19:42:00.001+08:00

went alone to have the rest done... took about 4.5 hrs.. very very pain..

was driving home just now and radio was playing MLTR's "thats why you go away"

sang along with the song and cried badly.. been 2 weeks since i last shed tears..

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

As the saying goes...

2009-07-29T11:30:00.003+08:00

It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all

Sorry, i beg to differ

maybe i'm am just a pussy who cannot let go.

I rather not feel the aftermath of a failed r/s.

I rather time turns back and i'll be a better man.

i rather hug my grandma and enjoy my moments with her.

Nevertheless, i never regret knowing her.

*cries like a pussy cat*

黑夜将城市笼罩　
想念蔓延在细胞
想妳的拥抱　
妳的微笑　
想到快要疯掉
爱妳到莫名其妙　
上了瘾无可救药
没有妳　
会死掉
我不再开心的笑　
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在妳离开以后　
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告　
才掉进妳的圈套
现在知道　
却放不掉　
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对妳的依靠　
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗　
相思的煎熬
戒不掉妳对我的好　
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我　
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对妳的依靠
我不再开心的笑　
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在妳离开以后　
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告　
才掉进妳的圈套
现在知道　
却放不掉　
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对妳的依靠　
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗　
相思的煎熬
戒不掉妳对我的好　
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我　
我无路可逃
戒不掉对妳的依靠　
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗　
相思的煎熬
戒不掉妳对我的好　
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我　
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对妳的依靠
就是戒不掉妳对我的好

pain..

2009-07-26T08:55:00.001+08:00

the pain started on 25th July 2009, at 5pm local time..

ended slightly before 7pm..

coming sat, august 1st, 4 more hours of pain..

:( :( :(

我不信命我信爱情是没有理由悲欢的注定
在我的掌纹中你在哪里
如此的清晰
没有输赢
你是我的命

:(

2009-07-22T09:37:00.002+08:00

feel so terrible..

maybe i just cannot accept the fact that i got ditched.

i do not wish th pester her.. i know she is suffering...

:(

hmm..

2009-07-15T11:19:00.002+08:00

i wonder if any of my friends still pass by this blog lol.

anyway, i'm single again.
one of my close friends tell me, 女人要走，留不住。
maybe so.

[i]When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.[/i]

been through so much together after the 1st breakup, efforts are spend to rebuild them. proposal rings and wedding bands bought together, my dreams were short lived once again. she has no more feelings for me, and has move on. i shall leave the past behind and walk down the road again. it wont be easy for me, but i got no choice..

love starts from a smile, grows to a kiss, ends with a teardrop.

2008-10-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

last week saw adrain at bugis, that cheespie kia saw me only faster look away..

ovwe me $70 for few years. LOL i also nv chase him since i know he is always broke.. didnt say hi to me also.. sigh :( $70 nia dun like that lah :( still frends right..

saw feilong on sat at amk, also v long nv see. 1st thing to comment is i am bui bui :(

saw jason at a carpark LOL while i was parking my bike. also v long nv see.

saw porsong at mrt, also v long nv see.

1 week see so many long lost frens, feel emo leh :S

2008-10-20T10:15:00.000+08:00

life sucks :(

2008-01-31T15:37:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is my bb's birthday liao..

happy birthday bb~

:)

2008-01-23T10:39:00.000+08:00

thanks to eric for the lobang and i got my n95 8gb finally.

battery life really sucksssssssssssssssss

now my wish list is almost complete after so many years =.=

2007-12-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

damn sian, these days riding on the road is like going war, inconsiderate drivers (riders included) even predestrains like to do something funny like rushing across the road.. yesterday's ride was damn bloody scary at least to me.. short 10km distance and i got freaked out 3-4 times? sucks.

conclusion of drivers/riders in SG to me : Either they drive VERY SLOW road hogging OR they SPEED like takumi. Once they go over to NSHW, they maintain 90-100km/h SAFETY DRIVERS. Com'on man.. wtfomgbbq??

Hope to stay alive and in 1 piece everyday on the road. :~)

since christmas is coming...

2007-12-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

i shall sing a oldie song for u all in EDMW language.

rast kissmas i ish gib chiu moi heart, but the bery next day, chiu ish gib it away, this year, to save moi from tears, i ish gib it to pruss wan special~

nice? ok i am very bored -_- waiting for tsk come fetch me..

anyway, was playing yahoo pool with a aust guy for 2+ hour the other day, had lots of chat wif him blablabla.. before we end of last match, he actually said, "u know well that we wont be bumping into each other again, and thats sucks" very true indeed, since i find it pointless to get msn/skype/email address from him. (lim peh not gay)

what i'm trying to say is, in one's life, so many passerbys.. thats very sad :( but nevermind, few rounds of wolfteam will get me very sexcited :) oops edmw again~ LOLOLOL

2007-12-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.edengeomancy.com

support~

2007-11-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

i ish welly happy becoz my relatives from msia all all coming for my cousin's wedding. 5 cars heading southbound for SG weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. damn sexcited yea! lol
too much edmw liao :S

attended wk's wedding yest, hell lots of fun with the pscsg guys. really glad to see jerome and those usual suspects hehe. all say i pui, i ish damn sad :(

awaiting for reunion with my grandmother!! weeeeeeeeeeeee~~

:P

2007-11-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

sian.. hate working in my company.. when i'm "eng", i am farking eng one (eng = free)

when busy, busy like a bee.. yeah right now still stuck at my workplace. damn it, monday already work late. tml's weekeong wedding, no excuse not to go as he was my engineer :)

somehow i just miss pscsg life.. but there's no turning back.. :(
even my ex boss over there left lol..

btw, my bike gear lever flew off again the 2nd time, ultimate nightmare man!! just imagine on the expressway travelling 100km/h when u're abt to down gear, exit u found that ur lever is missing!!! how the hell do u stop!! lol it happen to me, i was not prepare to stop, stop means tow bike and get stuck on the CTE. whack in gear 4 all the way to my gf's block and got horned by some drivers LOLOLOLOL. end up still tow the next day.. haizz

life is really like a straw it sucks yea..

2007-11-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

i tot the movie gameplan was a comedy. well, i thought. it was actually a welly welly touching movie and my gf cried again lol. nice show by the rock!

tot can see his neh neh become breast, but his neh neh still welly welly tough lols

sat nite went out till abt 4am, till now after 1-2 days my mind still blur blur, not enuff sleep.. too much FPS games liao hurhurhur.

been trying to sell my e61i to get the n95 8gb, still no luck. sian, dunno to get iphone or n95. :(

sian, gonna attend 3 weddings soon in nov & dec. welly welly poor man lols. congrations to them :)

2007-10-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

took mc today and went to NSC. Raining damn big today so lanlan tear 20 dollar coupon and drove there instead. doc says nothing serious just that it would take weeks to months and maybe YEARS to heal. WTF? i must scratch myself like a monkey for years?! similanjiao -_-

recieved weekeong's wedding invitation today, gonna kena 2 again in dec.. jw still dare to say "lucky he got reservist" lol. anyway gonna predict another BBQ from pscsg guys soon *wink*

bikeshop call me yesterday ask me if i am willing to give them my z1000 original parts (blinkers, fender, windshield) initially i hesitated, but i am so lazy to dig them out lol. they gonna sell the Z off.. if only i got the DOLLARS..

feel like changing job again man. damn sian. gf offically jobless today.. she's so worried...

i tot tml is shaun birdday, then just now i check my email found out its today LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL self pwn. anyway, happy birthday bro.. ASGM? :)

u wouldnt believe it

2007-10-06T10:50:00.001+08:00

yes.. !#!@#!@$%@##

got hit by a reversing car again at the petrol kiosk. farking piece of pi sai actually did a 3pt turn and wanted to run. i hit his car damn hard asking him to pull over. instead he wind down the screen and "apologised" with his hand. FUCK HIM.

chase him on my foot right infront of everybody and fark him. I said to him have the farking courtesy to get out of his farking lexus and apologise and not use his hand. He told me he dont want to fight. i was like, "wtf"?? who want to touch u ? farking piece of black pi sai. after some heated arguements he actually walked away, i was so pissed i shouted damn loudly, "u irresponsible idiot" Lol, that got him mad but i dun give a damn, POS.

Cb when i left, his wife actually stared at me like it was my fault. FARK U LA. weather so hot wear so much so many layers hahahhaa.

okok i think i am too racist :X but i still love my indians frends ~

ps: sibeh suay. why why why???

suay

2007-10-02T08:45:00.000+08:00

f-king suay. early morning on my way to work while riding, this stupid bird charged right at me, causing me to siam almost losing my balance. i was like WTF!! stupid kukubird :S

Continue my journey to work, another incident happen. tried to siam this auntie and rode into the grass, nabei tyre too small, causing me to fall. suay suay bike dun land on the grass it landed on the tarmac. !@#!@$@#@#$@! this time it fell on the left!! fark. my carbon fibre front mudguard chipped off, my balancer chipped, my racing footpeg scratched. some abrasion to my palm and my kneecap. (DAMN, its so pain!) sibeh sian.

reached my workplace, dropped my keys into the longkang -_- on a better note, at least the longkang got no water. :S

its only farking 8+ in the morning and i still got a long day ahead. how many more suay things gonna happen... cheeeeeeeeeeeeseeeepie

2007-09-30T22:02:00.001+08:00

my sparks got knocked down once again... by my dad..

speechless....

apart from a bent brake lever,

the bike runs faster!!!

-_-

2007-09-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

on the early sunday morning at 4am, was having kopi wif shaun, so i told him my bike gear lever seems funny, always out of position, dunno will drop out anot. then sunday nite while riding back home from amk, heard metal sounds dropping, look at my keys, still intact so continue my journey.

nabei turban, approached paya lebar traffic light, want to drop gear then found my whole shift lever missing -_-"

wanted to dash across the red light, but thats stupid. lan lan park at 1 side and called for help. superman shaun hahhahaha arrived and we pushed my bike to ubi. (from paya lebar to ubi) hahahaha he save my day lol

sian ji pua, luckily it happen at nite, not much traffic. and suay suay less than 24 hour after i say "dunno will drop out anot" IT DROPPED.

i ish sian lor, toto nv kena yet must spend money again :S

2007-09-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

OK, i cut everything short and sweet.

MY NEXT DREAM BIKE WOULD BE THE MV BRUTALE 750S.

end of story.

wish me luck.

2007-09-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

What a bored saturday, as usual head to work again early in the morning. Not "xin nang" at all hahaa. anyway i went to bike shop change my tyres and oil for my bike. changed my headlight as well. knn mech give me 1 "outside-blue-but-when-on-become-GREEN" lightbulb. really lor! bright green somemore ~.~ initially i was ok lah, since mounted on then sua.

rode to pw met my gf for lunch, nabei the light bulb blew. ._.

lppl went back and changed back to original orange. was informed yang was there and went to buy food for the mechs. since it was ages since we last met, decided to wait for him, cb he went all the way to jalan besar buy lunch and i waited like 45 mins for him. he got back his kawa liao. glad for him. too bad his gf zhao sai him. he was cheated for 2 mths before he found out. the r/s lasted for 4 yrs. quite long huh.

._.

2007-08-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

went to work today, about 1h+ later i just felt disgusted and wanted to get away from work, things not done at all. really felt the stress working here and also was pissed off with this cb customer, kpkb and complaining things which i did not do and i got photos to proove the condition BEFORE i tested his PCB. PUKI!

Sucks more when the only 2 persons i can turn to (which are my snr engineer), both so farking useless and not in SG as well.

LIFE IS LIKE A STRAW IT SUCKS!

My father told me to view it in a positive way, on how to deal with the farked up customers. really felt better. he commented that just "learn" from the customer and it will come in handy. meaning, learn how to be a chee buy kia hahaahahahaha and next time if i were to have my own business or what, at least i know their cb patterns and wont feel so dulan.

hokay from today onwards i am gonna be a cb kia. thumbs up!

2007-08-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

another hour to come, marks the 1st death anniversary of my beloved.

YOU HAVE NOT BEEN FORGOTTEN..

i lup u.. dip dip.

=(

2007-07-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

that day i was riding home from work then i saw a tp in front of me.

suay suay stop beside him at junction, no where to siam -_-

he stare at my bike while i bo chee only look at his tyre. -.-

then he told me, get urself a left hand mirror, its illegal without one, and that he can fine me. lalalalala heng man~ after green light he sped off as if he's riding a haya. Yawn~~~~~~~~

been so tired everyday, working till late hours and weekend burn off becoz of work as well... when is the $$$ rolling in?

2007-07-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

hokay! let me tell u. my lao bu tio 4d 1st prize :)

not much, cant even buy half of my previous kawa bike lol

she damn cute, ask me to call her mummy she give me 500.

i said more than 10 times i say i want 5k HAHAHAHAHA

she tio pwn liao lol

Here i go again..

2007-06-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Less than 3 months into new co, here i left again.. Missed my new ex-colleagues Jason, David, Gnana, Renjith, Rubin, Elmo, lee and etc.. We eat snake together u see LOL. And of coz some others who i know for only 2 days in my shift haha.

New co, promised better prospects and slightly better pay. Normal working hours mon to fri, dress code smart. No jeans no causal jeans allowed :'( Those who knows me well would understand That i hate to dress formal.

Hhh

2007-05-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

yo, been so lazy to update this blog, anyway, wanna share with ppl this photo i taken on 25th May from inside my company =D

The sky is falling the sky is falling!

=D

2007-04-14T15:53:00.000+08:00

just went to to service my bike, down my sprockets 2 sizes from 46 to 44 and new chains, new brake pads, oil change and new oil filter, adjusted my "jam" steering cones and blablabla. I was telling my mech that my bike wobbles alot when i brake hard. When he took out the brake pads to investigate, and to my horror, my brakes are working only on a brake pad! Its suppose to brake on 2!! furthermore, there's uneven braking lines!! screw the earlier bike shop for anyhow fitting! Screw you dip dip!

2007-04-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

took urgent leave today.

Gnana msg me the 1st time telling me sian, dunno what to do. didnt bother to reply though, was busy somehow. so he sent me another sms.

lee said lansai coz u never reply. We r having problems on planning how to kill time coz all this while u do the planning and we just follow. We miss u.

LOL. i brought forward the PANASONIC eat snake culture HAHAHAHA

2007-03-27T20:34:00.000+08:00

life in new co sucks. 1stly the co is not doing very well, they are finding reasons to cut ppl. for eg, too many of us new birds right, so nothing to do, kena complain for walking around. cb la, sit,walk,stand,smoke do wat also kena aim, their only reason is to cut headcount. 2ndly, my immediate indian engineer LIKES me. ALOT. he likes to ask wat have i been doing, how much do i know and etc. today i wasnt paying attention to his trainings at all, simply because i dun understand his farking ah neh slang. very irritating till i gave up trying. knn he saw me very sian he say to me, "why jack, want to go break is it?" i replied, "no" and returned a smile. then he said, "when i am trying to explain things to u all, if u dun pay attention i will not say it again" nabei when scold ppl (me) english so clear. when talk other things all the ah neh slang come out. cb. gonna jump ship soon i hope!

my new colleagues gave me a nick. nabei, go everywhere work also got ppl call me nickname. anyway, its not really a nick hahaa.. whenever they see me they will say, "jack, makan anaconda ah" LOL. it means EAT ANACONDA. not snake becoz, they say they eat small snake while i always eat big ones thus call me anaconda LOL

LIFE IS LIKE A STRAW, IT SUCKS! WE ARE THE SUCKERS! =P

2007-03-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT HAPPY I AM NOT HAPPY I AM NOT HAPPY

time for updates

2007-03-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

haven been updating haha, too lazy :) here goes..

back from msia on 1st march and started my new job on the 6th. today's the 3rd day of work and damn, i missed my old colleagues at PSCSG :(

new co, i dare to say 80 % are make up of indians and china nationals. -___- i'm hanging day in and out at co with 5 ppl, of which 4 are indians. and my immediate supervisor is also from india -_- bloody sh!t, whatever he say i must call him to repeat. his slang is tooooo powderful~

life in new co is very relaxed, but PSCSG is way better!! kinda regret making that deadly switch in career. sigh.. past 2 days i zo bo lan, everyday hide at canteen hahaha. today finally had some trainings. professional trainings conducted.

Yesterday was damn pissed. met up wif a guy i knew for only 1 mth and had dinner together at carpenter street. CB after that he brought me to his co, ENYOUTH. ITS A MLM COMPANY! although it claims its SLM blablabla. want to know more abt MLMs, here --> http://www.quatloos.com/mlm/mlm.htm lanlan i went in and listen to the so call success stories. yawn. as expected, today my fren call again, cb. i said i wasnt interested and he wants me to go again on sat. fark him dip dip. he is a common fren of me and my gf. i told my gf if he pesters me again, i'm gonna be hostile. CB

been very very very moody these days.. not happy at all. really feel the world has turned upside down on me. :( WHEN WILL I BE HAPPY :'(

ps: every day i hear ppl at my co call out to each other, *neh, bangala yan de bu neng neh~* simi ran -_- i dunno wat they are saying but the 1st word i hear is NEH. duh~

2007-02-16T10:33:00.000+08:00

had drinks with the gang again yesterday nite at boatquay. jw was pretty drunk initially hahaha. anyway, gonna share something interesting. my comp was getting very lag these days, playing my ONLY game counterstrike 1.6 also lagging like fark. so i decided to take out my cpu case and to my horror, my cpu fan is filled with dirt. =X i use my Phua Chu Kang fingernails to scrap the dirt out and its at least 1000kg of dirt hahahahaha. wow power le, after doing that my comp runs smoothly. wtf ? yesh WTF!! hope it stays this way~

going back to msia for CNY later around 12pm. got to call my gal and bid byebye. ok i ish go pang sai now, hopefully i pang gold and huat ah~!

happy CNY :)

oh sh!t

2007-02-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

eat and eat and eat, thats what i've been doing every night! weigh myself on the weighing scales and wat the fark i gained 2kgs -_- i need to excerise~~ hahaha

went to jb with qiuyi and frens. pity jayven, his car kena hump lol. sing shop eat, thats what we did -.-

anyway, gonna join qiuyi and her fren+bf eat supper tonight at chinatown area *_*

coming sunday (tml) there will be steamboat dinner at home *_*

coming tuesday will have a gathering reunion dinner for me and usual suspects at bugis *_*

fat fat fat. imagine a fat cat smiling at you. hahahaha

2007-02-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

haha, my 100th post for this blog. lol bored -_-

been very nua ever since i quit my job. just waiting for time to pass by..

so lazy to even start doing my v day present for qiuyi.. yawnz

Thanks

2007-02-03T10:42:00.000+08:00

The BBQ was great, thanks to jayven/jingwei/randy/shawn/alex for setting up and etc. *bows head*

Thanks to my many years buddies for coming to too, though i sort of pang seh u all.

Thanks to all PSCSG frens who came down.

Thanks to all Raduga frens who came down.

Will try to upload the pics into my album once i have the time.

=)

2007-01-27T17:43:00.000+08:00

was working my last night at pscsg yesterday.. "working" isnt the correct term actually haha.. scan my card in at 8+, waited for jayven picking me and sk. met up with the usual suspects and proceed to boatquay for ktv-drinking session.

sian, make me feel more sad for the ativities they plan for my last day.. =( of coz from my operators as well, daniel did jio for LSB, randy jio for makan outside.. took a pic with everyone of them. (uploaded @ photobucket) then when jay and jw sang 朋友, i ish more sad! :~(

went back to co at 3.30am and fell into a coma haha.. slept till 7am when my calf muscle cramp! basket! last day sleep in co, leg cramp~!!! had a last breakfast wif randy at co and bid all farewell :)

we'll see each other outside!!

some updates

2007-01-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

hmm, gonna end my job at PSCSG this saturday.. not much of feelings except missing my buddies... shake leg for a month after that zzz...

had a operation last night with aero,desmond and norman at some "bird dont lay egg" place at jurong lol.. very happening man~ but it ended quite badly for norman, as he had some arguements with the ppl, defintely not for xxxxx LOL.. should have go "lia gao" him hahahaha

things arent going very good within me and her. she's playing with my feelings again and again and again and so on x 1000000. Been feeling so sian and looking so moody that even the taxi driver could notice and started telling me to let things go. ????? how the fiak he knows?? anyway, he continue saying he could see i had many problems and advise me to let things go, time will heal he says.. well, i have been hearing these million times but too bad i'm just not man enough to let things go.. i will, someday.. somewhere.. somehow..

i'm always being taken advantage.. sigh.

2007-01-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

been busy for this past week.. working.. was with jayven and norman at a ktv pub few days ago listening to jayven's taiwanese drama HAHAHA. whenever after he sing finish, got ppl clap -.- anyway he's a lucky bastard, so many gals fall for him !@#!&%$#$

so is JW, another lucky one -.- waiting for him to tell story this coming weekend :D

was supposed to go ot yesterday, end up met JW for dinner and halfway through, lee, chua and jayven came. they wanted to "la kopi" ended up we were drinking calsberg -_- and eating lots of food. had so much crap and fun with them till i didnt feel like going back co. lol

anyway, do u believe in ghost? LOL

mission accomplished!

2007-01-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

did some riding today around city and town area.. felt very bored at home as JW was sick, no kaki to ktv.. seems like everyone is sick. my 2 nephews down, my brother is down as well.. went PS walk walk, follow by bugis area then to ikea tampines. bought some stuffs from ikea.. cheap cheap cheap compare to spotlight at PS!

anyway, the mission was... well, i skidded and total loss my z1000 at tpe -> pie(jurong) in august 06, and after that, i never had the chance to ride that route again. only drove in 1-2 times in my friend's car. today i took that route, haha... went at gear 3 speed 70km/h.. basket.. that time on my z, i rode even slower (i assume) but crashed. well, at least i conquer my fears, and i see it as a misson accomplished =P

ride safe~!

Depression..

2007-01-02T11:04:00.000+08:00

Kang was telling me he got into a depression after he broke up with his ex of 2 years. so seriously that he cannot remember his friends..

read through and found out the meaning of depression.. someone who rather stay alone, not mixing with ppl around, always worrying, always unhappy, keeps things to himself and just feel like crying all the time.

anyway, i was telling my mum i went to geylang on the 1st of jan..

mum, "so where u went on the eve?"
me, "dinner wif frens then go geylang"
mum, "do what?"
me, "call chicken lor"
mum, "china one? how much u pay?"
me, "...."

i got a rather cute mum, who worries more abt the $$ i spend rather than i visiting prostitution.. lol!

happy new year!

2007-01-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

happy new year 2007~ time flies, i remember i was counting down in msia klang valley in 1999... now already 2007 -.- anyway, was wif the usual suspects at changi north eating our dinner and headed to yacht club(something like that) at changi south or taman merah? atmosphere was cool, they had a balcony facing the sea.. but then ah peks and aunties started coming in... and started to sing... old hokkien songs LOL shaun and peter buay tahan went out and TCSS instead haha..

when clock strikes 12, ships were PCC-ing. yeah, shooting out dunno what red fireball.. SOS? fire works could be seen, most probably from marina bay..

left the place soon after, joe josh went to find other friends to drink more lol. the rest of us went to geylang makan pruss sight seeing HAHAHA. so sad, when i see a farking swee cheena charbor and a bangala go in hotel. maybe i am jealous >.<

Hope JW is ok.. he's in BKK and there's bombings there.. so is yu, who called back to shaun and report safe... msg JW but got no reply.. wonder is he ok or not.. haiz..

PS: My resolution for 2007 is actually simple, to stay happy and start a new life..

i will miss them :(

2006-12-28T19:46:00.000+08:00

my brothers from pscsg. i love u all dipdip :(

*sob*

Decisions are hard to make..
I chose my direction..
Now or ever..
brothers in arm..

*sob*

to go or not to go?

2006-12-26T12:28:00.000+08:00

went to new co. and check out the packages etc, salary only 4% increase -.- benefits almost the same as my current job.. forgot to ask abt PH pay etc.. anyway, told them that i'll consider.. very hard to make decision le.. help help help!

got free speakers from shaun as he bought a new set from the creative sales we went few days ago.. shiok sia, esp when listen techno. ji teng ji teng hahahahah! as i am typing these, my mum is making noise again hahahahahahahaha buay tahan~! :D

i leave the world today~

Ending 2006..

2006-12-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

what a lousy year for me 2006... 1st half of the year was great.. got my cl2, bought my dream bike etc.. 2nd half, crashed my new bike, broke up wif gf. blah. overall 2006 is a painful year for me. few more days before bidding farewell to 2006!

2007, chinese believe its the year of the pig. i'm born in pig year.. means 2007 is a bad year for me as well.. duh! my minimum expectation FY2007 is just to stay happy and healthy.. eh sai boh?!

Anyway, christmas eve, i join shaun yu and joe at winehut. 2 years ago, we were there with the rest of the gang... went to pasir ris after that wanting to fish prawns, but me and joe pull out the last min.. seeing those fish being stepped, and left to die saddens me =(

Merry xmas~ :D

so tired~

2006-12-23T01:22:00.000+08:00

just reach home -.-

was at her house taling to her mum...

anyway so sorry to 3 of my shift buddies who called me just now at 11pm for last min "operation" at katong... paiseh man, cannot perform tuning for u all to see HAHAHAHA =p

so tired, worked the whole week and it finally pay off when pay day came today! double salary becoz AWS~ weeeeeeeee~ i'm a happy man :D

aiya

2006-12-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

walao, sat morning while eating at kopitiam, lim peh kena jiao sai right on the head, bloody hell, was going for a interview lor! so i tot, must buy 4d.. call up my mum, ask her help me buy, 5 numbers, x 2 days.. kns, nv tio, beh sai also dun have -.- watse my 30$

everything was quite smooth for the interview until the technical questions came. kaoz, all theory forgot hahahhaa! anyway, i'm shortlisted~ will be going down again to HR department nego..

sadly, i still miss her. macam taiwanese drama, never ending... -_-

希望她过的比我好。

finally~

2006-12-16T04:23:00.000+08:00

removed the pics of us le.. time for me to be move on, seriously, even if we are together again, there will still be problems.. she's just too inmature.. i'll find a better one :) move on jackjack kakaka.

suddenly miss michelle and agnes who use to call me jackjack.. time flies...

让你走
我的爱失控
藏在幸福快乐的背后
是我
逃避退缩
放开手
对爱不再有奢求
是非对错不想再多说
眼神交会时候
出卖承诺
泪在留

2006-12-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

went back co yesterday to do spring cleaning wif JW, lol poor him, he injured his foot again LOLOLOL. Then waited for everyone to get ready, left for serangoon garden for dinner. by the time food came was already quite late... gobble up the food in minutes time lol. took some pics also courtesy of alex's n73 :) will post them at my photo album.

msg randy to help me buy things from jb, got a msg from him that he broke up with his gf.. sigh.. is it a trend now??? will console him if i see him =(

Bought myself a new pair of levis glasses after my maid broke my spare one. she didnt admit, neither did i force her. just kept quiet.. dun want to make her feel bad la.. =)

went to MF to change EO and oil filter for my sparky.. shaun went to enquire his PC3 problems.. seems like after tuning by meng tong, his bike hard to start lol.

raining now, and i'm beginning to miss her.. her working place is near my house, 她近在身旁，却犹如远在天边..

i ish sad sad sad now.

break up

2006-12-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

we patch up on the 6th and broke up again on the 10th..

so much for my happy ending. sigh

memories..

2006-12-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

went to boat quay river by myself early morning, was there for an interview so sat by the river, saw couples, saw the beautiful river, memories all came back. took our 1st photo there 2 years ago while i was using 7610..

she had already told me to let go, but i'm so useless, sigh.

直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

no hope

2006-12-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

was wif ktv today at cine wif jingwei, ong, and cai... ong claims my singing was good haha ^.^

after that went to buy christmas ring for qiuyi. sigh, jingwei says i'm useless, indeed i admit i am. couldnt find the right one at orchard so i went bugis myself and bought a couple ring.

wanted to give her only either on christams or her birthday, ended up i gave it to her just now -.- fuck me. fuck me again. she wasnt at all touched from her facial expressions. someone fuck me please. i pop the question to her, asking her to be my gf. she didnt respond. someone fuck me harder please.

why am i so uselesssssssssssssssssssss? i know there's no way to recover lost love, 可是我不能自拔。

Taiping->Ipoh->Penang trip

2006-11-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

Alrite, a fun trip overall, went to many places, most of the time at temples. it was raining heavily everyday, no wonder they say ipoh is 雨城

Day 1: reached taiping ard 6+ and took cabs to chua's home. unpack our stuffs, he drove us to makan. after that he brought us to taiping lake garden, saw monkeys everywhere and when chua offered 1 of them ciggy, it actually went after chua LOL. set off for ipoh for lunch at the famous hongkong dim sum, damn, it was the best dim sum i ever eaten, better than the 1 i had at sungai petani..

we set off to the find the famous ipoh pomelo, wow saw a long stretch of them, as we walk pass, macam go pass geylang, aunties, babes asking us to try their pomelos -__- anyway, went shopping afetr that..

temples visit was next, as usual, pray for myself, family, relatives, friends and qiuyi.. sigh, throughout the trip, she was on my mind all the time :(

went to search for places that provides spa,suana and massage, end up went into 2 brothels -.- they had the signboards with the word SPA. see see only thats all. found the "clean" one and enjoy ourselves suana-ing, jacuzz-ing, eating, and body massage. bloody hell, 1st time i have body massage, making me pain and itchy when she touch my legs.. eeeeek

nightclub was our night activity, after that its food again -.- Spend our night at chua's house the 1st night.

Day 2: set off to penang, checked into cathy hotel (weee i got the big bed for myself) and went shopping.. drove out to penang again and head for butterworth, for seafood.. knn, call alot of funny creatures, 1st time i eat before -.- cheap also, 120RM for quite alot of food. Drove back into penang, back to our hotel. saw a health centre, walked in and -.- brothel again LOL. The OKT (or jui tao) saw us bioing 1 particular pro. in white and told us she going home LOL.. went off in search for a cozy pub/disco for some drinks.

Along the way saw many bapoks, eeeeks. most of them only aim ang mohs becoz only ang mohs like to poke asshole?? "come on honey, touch me" one shouted across the street. went into uptown bistro and there was a liveband, pretty good band, and babes :D ordered total of 9 jugs along the way but before i could finish, i went back to hotel 1st (drunk, drink too fast)

3rd day: went to temples again, went to a snake temple, and i visited the snake musuem, 1st time held a snake, shiok~ then went to another huge and grand temple, 吉乐寺, its on the hill and we had to walk against gravity in order to reach.

tired right now, good night folks

back from msia

2006-11-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

As soon as i reach home, my dad told me my nephew is warded in hospital for 3 days.. he's only 16 mths old.. watever he eats, he vomit out -.-

anyway, me rush down wif shaun to KK hospital and seeing him in such a sorry state saddens me :(

he ish so cute right?! he was discharged at abt 4pm just now.. ^^

brought qiuyi to see him as well, after that she came to my house to pack some clothes, i gave her a potrait of us (that i ask someone to draw). i open my blog and let her read.. she cried :( maybe because of the sad song 彩虹天堂...

我还是深爱着你.

2006-11-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

met up with weihong, a primary school fren for many years yesterday afternoon, while waiting for him, i saw her alighting the bus -.- yes, i saw her once again! knowing that she off on thursday, i met weihong at pw. ended up, she went back to do facial. fark. how many times must i see her, how many times must she missed me?

很痛苦啊

really sianz

2006-11-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

haiz, she called the other day and wanted some things back, so i put it at her doorstep and call her to pick them up while i quickly go away... then she say she want to see me.. i didnt want but my heart melt when she insisted... she grab my hands and we also kissed.. (wtf)

making me hook again sigh

so today i call her, she sounds so sian of my voice already, and true enough we got nothing much to talk.. i told her, apart from love, theres nothing much we can talk abt etc.. anyway, i will stop everything now. really had enuogh, dont give me any false hopes if u cant commit.. anyway, i gave her 1 of my amulets as well, hope my long por koon can protect her..

been working since last wednesday.. off days all go back OT. gonna work till this sat morning.. shag.. then leave for msia, off to ipoh for some "sight-seeing" =D *anxiously waiting*

going to geylang to eat 'you tiao' with shaun later.. a hungry man is a angry man!

2006-11-19T07:31:00.000+08:00

argh, cant sleep so blog in the early morning.. woke up at 4+am and cant sleep till now..only sleep 2-3hrs.. doing facial now LOL.. got pretty drunk yesterday haha.. no abalone HAHAHAHA! Going to work OT soon at 9, money in, money out -.-

Yet another operation :D

2006-11-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

This is what i got from Lee few days ago.. i'm invited! haha

To all the elite swingers of Testes & Mensus (T&M):
Hello gentlemen, hope you have a great swing at the codenamed 'Thai Disco' operation. HQ has just telegraphed another underground mission codenamed 'Ops Joo Chiat'. Assemble time is 2100hr at Paya Lebar MRT, 18th nov 2006. It is to be executed only by the best of the best members of Testes n Mensus company. This is a top secret operation. Only swingers of the email list are invited. Inform any swingers in the email list if you are unable to participate. All right gentlemen, Lets see you remember how to fly. This message will self-destruct in 5 seconds.

***DO NOT SPREAD A WORD OUT***

So tired at work.. sian.. been working alot OT.. what else can i do.. so lonely at home also sigh..

2006-11-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

these few days dunno why i keep feeling uneasy... maybe that day after riding heavily in the rain spark the thoughts? i had a dream yesterday.. i e brake and crash.. my front tyre no air already -.- sigh

met up wif kelvin who rides a vfr. he getting a blackbird soon.. married twice, japanese wives.. was telling him my story last nite.. and he shared his as well... haiz, seems like humans always have BGR problems..

anyway i was telling shaun, if anything happen to me, (i never had this kind of thoughts before...) theres a letter in my room cupboard.. :(

very tired!

2006-11-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

Fri nite watch slither at my workplace with colleagues.. knn got scared by raj -.- not really horror but disgusting.. eeks! anyway, didnt sleep tru out the nite and went to parkway after work the next morning.. guess wat, i saw her again.. this time her backview, at the coffeeshop while i rode pass.. sigh

bought a bread toaster for weekeong, went to his house warming at redhill.. stuck at the rain for about 1.5 hours, then decided to chiong to his house haha.. got wet in the end hah~ stay for only 30 mins and rode back in heavy downpour again.. really got me scared as now i have phobia for rain.. skid in the rain on my previous bike :(

slept for only 3 hours then mahjong wif my sis and frens at my house till early morning today, then i went to work -__- now i'm really tired, going to find "zhou gong" and hopefully, i get to see her in my dreams.. :(

time to show off..

2006-11-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

my sparky =p

still miss my Z alot... met up duane few days ago sold him my Z's K&N air filter.. sian, see ppl's Z make me sad sad :( Anyway, i love my sparky as well :D

all over..

2006-11-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

Its all over between me and her..

useless me went to find her again, after she didnt want to accept my calls and smses, pass her some of her things and then had some emotional talks. she is heartless, maybe one day i can learn from her as well.. somehow i feel better, getting negative comments from her and a "pissed off" look from her. she seemed very vexed abt this r/s, maybe becoz i didnt gave her enuogh time before, and i keep pestering her. ANYWAY, I HAD ENOUGH AS WELL.

I'm still in the process of doing some things for her.. i'll continue doing and one day when i feel like it, i'll just pass it to her siblings. she complained that i disturb her mum. WTF! i merely had talks with her mum thats all! her mum didnt complain my talks nor did she gave me any cold shoulders. In fact the 1st time round, her mum wanted to call me up!

Anyway, there are still some of her belongings in my house. dont want to give her back, HAHAHA. some face creams, facial wash blabla (most probably will rot). If ever i have a new gf, i promised myself, i'll treat her better than i treat myself. YES, i can sacrifice for love. ask my frens ^^

I ish so sad now! I want go kbox, go disco, do drink.. who can accompany me :(

Clubbing again

2006-11-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

Went clubbing with joe yesterday.. he power la, before meeting me, he had 4 jugs with his 2 frens, then we drank 3. he become alcoholic already hahahaha. knn cnb officer get addicted, call police :D

was very high yesterday, as usual, once i get high, i super "beng", tried to look for trouble =X we talk alot of crap inside the taxi, and joe was singing WTF..

today went to disturb shaun study, very sian dunno wat to do every off days :( then met joe for a while.. since its gonna rain, i came home to blog -.-

guess what..

2006-11-04T10:33:00.000+08:00

i was returning home from night shift just now abt 10 mins ago, and wtf, i saw her again on the bus.. i was at my area traffic junction and i saw a bus 76 turning left, i look up and saw her... sigh

STAY STRONG JACK -.-

Weak.

2006-11-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

Been enjoying my sparks anytime man. Riding around these few days.. Bike is very light thus always wobble.. Got cut by cars, trucks, buses, bikes on the road -.-

Anyway, while riding these few days, while listening randomly to sad songs, my tears just roll down. how weak am i. When can i ever be happy again? waiting for that day to arrive..

Right now at this moment, my mind is still thinking about her. WEAK.

found back my amulet..

2006-10-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

just got a sms from her that kbox called her up and told her they discover my thai amulet. am going to collect it tml.. very happy :)

at least, i found it back.. but not love sob

went out wif her today again, i told her if we were not to contact again, its much better.. she said ok. really donno wats on her mind.. all i know is i have to cool myself down... i need a resting arm :( :(

Listen to the sound of my lonely voice
dont turn around, u got no choice
think abt the past, and how u live in me
day by day, why dont u see

remember what we did when we 1st met
at the station in the morning all the things u said
only memories are left, always by my side
how i need a different place, a place to hide

happy birthday shaunny body :D saw him on the road today again, same place like last time when i had my Z, and my ex.. him wif yu.. however, today is my sparks and him wif his r1..

i miss big bike :(

very sad

2006-10-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

i lost my LP thuat today.. only realised it at 10+pm after leaving ktv.. :(

went back but cant find it anymore..

is this fate?

i lost so much things, i gained 1 back, a bike. now i lost my thai amulet.. so sad :(

My bike

2006-10-29T02:39:00.000+08:00

Weeeee finally got my sparks, really happy went around my area trying the bike.. slow compare to my z.. miss my z alot :(

went to 1 of the thai disco at golden mile, damn happening :D bill came out to ~$700 but i dun have to pay a cent :D played some technos and brought back alot of my techno days.. very long nv listen.. quite sad these songs.. to me la

sigh.. still feel lonely as usual after she left.. love is lost, hard to get back... at least i got my sparks to accompany me.. hope i ride safe and those stupid drivers and riders better dont come near me !

happy belated birthday joanne :D

Operation "Joo chiat"

2006-10-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ok, this is what i got from my email today..

To all samsters, bradders, partners in crime,
This is your captain speaking. It is high time for our long-awaited exercise titled ' Operation joo chiat'. The sky is dark, the ambience is sleazy, the beer is aplenty and the top of the list..... listen hard THE GIRLS ARE PRETTY AND DELICIOUS. Yaya, I know i know, sergent solwin please restrain yourself. As the name implies, it will be carried out in joo chiat and we will move on to other places if need arises, assemble time is 2230hrs because we will be attacking in the night. Please take note. So what are you waiting for? Soldiers, this is our show, this is our war, we are going to make and end it a memorable one. i'm outta here. Please forward to those that i have missed out coz i dont have their mails.

*solwin is a guy*

This email is from Lee, the funny guy LOL.. cant stop laffing at it. so decided to share wif ppl here ;)

Anyway, heard from JW that his ex msg him today again, saying she wants him back. omg.. cant even imagine if it ever happens to me.. sigh.. i hope to let things go.. its bringing me alot of pain..

Will be getting my sparks tml.. damn it.. my insurance is 3 times more now becoz of the previous claim.. 1.1k+ for a 3rd party insurance.. got to ride safely, prevent fire and thief -.- whats more important is, i wont feel lonely again with a bike to rely on. My LP thuat, LP kun and my LP mee-chai will protect me ;)

complicated..

2006-10-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

chiong two days ktv in a row, monday wif jw and yesterday wif my frens total abt 10. very hard to sing cuz everyone is after the mic. lol

she came to join in for our steamboat for 10mins and ktv session for about an hour. my frens watch me holding hands wif her.. all were asking wat type of r/s is that? i dunno.. i'm so sad. she doesnt want commitment and she doesnt know who to choose.

i kept telling myself i'll give her time, but yet everytime idun see her, i feel lost. i know i'm living in a fairytale, thinking that she'll be mine one day..

had a chat with wendy who once told us, that we wont last... she just told me that i'll have to wait becoz my ex's life is going in circles ?? i know she meant to say she's immature and doesnt know what she wants right now..

seriously, i hope things get better and for me now, i really dunno wat to do... sigh

went to bikeshop today claim my check but IC not ready.. how to do my transfer of my new bike.... argh

Drinking alone is lonely

2006-10-22T11:39:00.000+08:00

Early morning, was in soo kin's car and i saw her at the busstop :( almost 1 mth i didnt see her already :( how coincidence..

Was suppose to go joo chiat pubs with my frens but end up last min i put aeroplane. sorry guys, something crop up at home..

Busy day at work yesterday, tester down and jayven and me spent hours after hours repairing. some improvements but tester still not up. Thanks jay, he was suppose to do other things hahahaha.. Thanks for the drop at eunos too :)

We called up james for some chit chat and omg, missed him deeply :( eevryone felt safe whenever he was around, his technical skills and troubleshooting is really good. James... :( now he enjoying life elsewhere :D

Anyway, end up i went out at 12+ midnight to eat punggol nasi lemak myself and some alcohol. felt very hungry, didnt eat much the whole day. smoke 1 pack of ciggys thou =X Drinking alone is very lonely :( so i left in just 10 mins. hah!

sad again

2006-10-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

Its like falling out of love 2nd time.

We keep in contact these few days, she gave a strong hint she wants to come back. I told her all i want is an answer, a simple answer that i do not wish to write here. i do not wish emptiness, lonely, think of me then come back. all i want is the final answer and her heart.

Too bad, she still cant give. So i told her, i'll be riding again, if anything happens to me, dont feel sad. Within a month, i lost my bike and my precious. God is never fair to me. 有得必有失. i never gain anything, and i lost so much. even if i put on a smiling face, i'm never happy as before. I hate my job, there's nothing much i can do. Bonus coming -_- and i got a bike as a "burden" -.-

有多少爱能从来，多少人愿意等待？我会. She gave me my confident, my pride, my everything. But when she left, she took everything away. I need it back... from her.

Dont really want to continue anymore, makes me even more sad. I dont want to drop tears again, i hate that period where i dont feel like a human..

好人终会受伤.

Sparky

2006-10-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah, going to view the spark135 this evening at my place. hope the deal goes through.

Was pissed off yesterday, told my mum i buying a ~5k bike. she say ok, then i big mouth say num plate also bidded. ask me wat num, i say 77, WTF. she kpkb say "dont do things make ur parents worry la"

CB. just becoz my previous bike was 7777 (sold it away) then she make noise. WTF! farking superstitious. that 7777 wif me for 2yrs plus, nv had problems wif it, then crash already, start pointing fingers at my num plate CB!

QUIT BEING SO CRAPPY PLS! I DO THINGS MY WAY!

Singlehood

2006-10-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

... is actually not bad afterall. Been going out very often, dont have to report duty to her, dont have any commitments, not bad.

Today is 1 mth "anniversary" of our break up. Slowly, i'm letting things go. She still calls and msg me. I told her i wont see her. I dun want to get back the feelings like i had 1 mth ago. Physically, i'm dropdead that time. I dont want to sink deeper, with only me and myself inside the cave.

Anyway, didnt manage to buy the 100 bucks bike. KNN, promised got box got erp, end up simi sai also dun have. Now got new target, spark135. very ex as it only lauched this year. Money money money...

Yesterday, went out wif JW go queensway then orchard, HAHAHAHAHAHA we go find tammi. HAHAHAHAHAHA. search the place and finally found her working place hahahahahahhaa. pretty babe. too bad she's "taken" LOL.

All the best to JW, his ex got a new gf, and he himself also dragging some things with another gal. Take care brother.

Thanks shaun for the nasi lemake delievery. anybody wants punggol nasi lemak? there is a hotline to call for free delivery. msg me for the hotline :D

KTV......vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

2006-10-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

Sang K today again, with jingwei and call along jayven + his gf

lol we 3 had names starting with J

Throat is extremely painful, yesterday sang so much, haven heal much and sang today again lol.

Went to WJ house swim, and scrap my elbow, bloody hell, my skin torn out and started bleeding *pain* had a haircut later and as said, went K :D

She sms me yesterday but i didnt reply, today she called, :( i told her i still miss her :( anyway, she said i could still enjoy my life without her, (told her i sang K, went out wif frens blabla) WHAT YOU EXPECT ME TO DO? STAY AT HOME AND CRY FOR YOUR RETURN?

sad mood again sigh

ps. thanks shaun for helping me with the bike matters :D owe u one, but u owe me money HAHAHAHAHAHA

My life

2006-10-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

So much things have happen recently,
I crashed my 4 mths old new bike, total loss it
My gf left me
My life changed in just 1 month..

Goodbye Z :(

This is a pic of my Z without most of the accessories. Regret not taking more pics of her.

Anyway, will be getting a LC for transport usage, sharing with shaun. Most probably i will be riding it cause he already has his own bike.

Whatever is lost, i can get it back. How about love?

weee~~~

2006-04-04T02:52:00.000+08:00

wtf man, waking up in the middle of the night at 2+am is not fun! walao cant sleep man basket... went to sleep at 12, wake up at 2.30, body itching -_-

Reasons, i dnpay my new bike today!!!!!!!! so happy! weeeeeeeeeee~~
also i miss my gal le =( no 1 to share the joy wif me except for shaun BECOZ I PUT HIM AS SUBRIDER. lol basket he "tan" tio..

abit frustrated after since i dnpay my bike... is it neccessary to own a 1-litre bike in sg? sigh.. dunno... i just want my dream bike...

ah sian cannot sleep, later anyhow think again... no no nooooooooooooooo -.-

hahaha i am back ^^

2006-03-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA! lim beh is back weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

almost 1 year not updating. ok here's a quick one

-still fat and getting fatter
-still smoking
-still with my wife ^^ and very stable
-still riding my banana bike. SOON, z1000 weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~
-already no more a handphone tech, onto my 3rd job

what sia, had 5 comments on my last post, 4 of them are rubbish man -_- at least i had a decent one ahahahahaha.

oh, i had a very cute nephew born last year in july.. hahaha he is so cute and he looks like "la bi xiao xin". he was in most of the *cute babies comeptition* anyway. i'm lazy to post his picture, later he hantam me. anyway vote for him! kelong abit ^^

https://www.wyethnutrition.com.sg/sg/adorablekidscontest/profile.asp?category=6-11&BID=616

dream

2005-04-19T11:10:00.000+08:00

had a wierd dream yesterday... dream that i told my ex boss i'll join back his company in june.. i was thinking, maybe somewhere in my mind, i still miss the ppl there... i wish all of them well and safe...

omg..

2005-03-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

mom went body checkup this morning.. when she returned, she broke news to us that she's got diabetes.. =( i am still very very shocked and sad now.. fuck it.. why happen to my mother knn.. =( Right now just hope she can control her diet and go excercise.. (she wont anyway) When i came back from work few mins ago, saw her lying on the bed.. just eaten her medicine.. no strength at all.. FUCK IT.. SADDENS ME MORE nabei.. =(

Talk abt work... my new work place... so many chio lians.. all ard my age and almost all smokers -___- the whole day i smell perfume -.- haven really click with them yet.. the things i do are so similar with those i did last time.. only things diff are software used and phones.. Sian.. 2 months later i'll leave.. maybe dont wanna touch handphone anymore >.<

BTW, got backstabbed after i left my old company.. long long story... heng i already left.. watch out ppl.. working world is very cruel.. =.=

god bless mama~

awwwman

new job..

2005-03-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

yeah.. busy day today man.. early in the morning woke up... had an appointment with a job agent at 8.30am takashimaya... but then mother shook me up at 7.30am say outside raining -___- lan pa pa lan... chiong to take bus... reached tower A, (the agent wanted me to wear formal.. SIAN) met the guy, filled up my particulars and told me to go ubi for interview.. actually earlier the company @ ubi had already wanted to interview me..

took a cab from orchard.. NNB... that agent interview me until 9+.. my appointment @ 10 am -.- The company is call semi tech electronics... listed company hehe.. worst was... ubi area jammed like hell.. short trip only from orchard to ubi.. cost $11 OMFG WTF!!!

Fill in yet another particulars form -.- wah alot chiobu there man *drool* Had a 1-1 interview again... and got the job -___- start work on friday -___- working as a handphone technician... previously i work also as a handphone technician.. but mostly on software.. this time round, soldering, testing, pcb etc all hardware stuffs >.<

Tamade, that guy relocate me to city area again -.- but working hour after 10, so no ERP! heh!! Working hours quite long also... 1 month 5 days leave, out of the 5 days, can only choose 1 sunday =( the other 4 days on weekdays :`( meaning i got no time for family friends and gf. neh neh working hours 10.45am-8.15pm, sundays 10.45am-5+pm... 2 45minute breaks everyday.. wat am i gonna do sia.....

Out of courtesy, called up the agent told him i got the job.. then he want me go back taka... passed me black and white copy of "contract" (turns out that i have to work 60 days for my new job else 80% of salary forfeited) -________________- went home first to get my bike... ate lunch rode back to taka -.- damn hot (too long nv ride during afternoon) got the letter and went to wendy house... just reached now.. tml going to novena income tax settle some stuffs sian..

awwwwwwman

Jobless -_-

2005-03-05T16:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my last day at Raduga.. Felt sad leaving though many had already left before me.. those who left includes siang, kin, qin, alex, wendy, fan, fuming, me.. those leaving end of month are zhengwei and liping LOL.. lydia, benny leaving too rofl..

Finally i have time to search for a new job.. infact, got myself an interview on monday at takashimaya and ubi.. hope to get a job asap, can keep me busy.. initially, i wanted to take a 1-2 week break.. but then.. i also dunno wat to do... so might as well abort plan.

So many things to buy... so LITTLE money. *hint* at someone. Now i'm just like Ahlong, lending ppl money.. here abit there abit total $700+ -___- wonder when can see the money. Sometimes i really look down on ppl who still uses parents money for ownself's pleasure. Go holiday ah, buy bike buy car etc all parents money.. My primary school fren, W, very unpopular within his camp mates according to sources, cuz his father multi millionair.. WTF.. ?!?!?! ..............

well good luck to me on monday. heh~

sad.

2005-02-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. ah xiang wrote me a letter today.. infact he wrote everyone each.. he finds it hard to say.. so he chose to write instead..

walao after reading those few lines, KNS.. i almost shed a tear.. *very mushy contents, not saying*

Alex and fan tender thier resignation today as well.. ROFL John was fuming with anger man.. wonder how he will react when i leave HA HA HA!

awwman