Sunday, October 17, 2004>
I AM SO SORRY
I feel sad.. yes sad again.. never in my life i got think gals would be intrested in me (as far as i am concern LOL)
i rejected her. i'm sorry... its not that i dont like her, nor do i detest her or anything.. its just that.. I REALLY DON'T WANNA COMMIT NOW! i'm not a bastard. If i really force myself to be with her, i know its not gonna have a happy ending. how long do we know each other? 5 mths? i seriously dont think she understand me well.. got to admit... SO DO I.
She told me its her 1st time she would actually initiate. She had 2 ex bfs before.. i got none. i'm not a despo. nor do i go out and hunt for gals. its just that at this point of time, i seriously dont think she and i will work out. i have been soft on her for the past few days.. but today i had enough.. my frens told me since the soft way doesnt work, i got to be cruel.. at first i couldnt bring myself to do that.. but just now while i was with her..(wanted to make it clear again face to face) she just didnt want to let me go -__- therefore i got no choice but to do it the hard way.. hoping she will hate me.. AWWWWWWWWWMAN i feel bad :(
I told her it wasnt her fault.. it takes 2 hands to clap but my hand cant...i cannot be selfish.. sigh dunno wat to say already.. as the lyrics of jay chou's song 借口 says "如果难过,请你忘了我" meaning "if you are sad, please forget me"
awwman
entry posted at 8:25 PM
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